like every every early morning…Cant Afford Better Help… particularly on the weekends like today’s saturday saturdays have actually constantly drawn they’ve always been actually difficult mental days for me i don’t know what’s next i’m simply gon na try this out i might hate it i do not know i do not really want to get a therapist i’ve always wished to simply deal with my psychological things without having to get one due to the fact that to me i simply um i simply do not want to need to go through all of this and i do not wish to need to inform individuals all of my things and simply go through all of this i simply don’t seem like doing all of this and i truly simply wished to handle this on my own i’m not 100 sure that i can after almost thirty years of attempting so we’re gon na enter that today uh i do not know i’m just tired of dealing with this and like like i stated.